So, I had written my New Year's resolutions. So far I've managed to completely give up on one, stick to one and half-ass the other.
I tried to do my happiness journal. I really tried. And it's not that I'm not happy. I am. Not like I used to be but my kids make me happy. Our kitten, Snow, makes me happy. But I suck at journalling. Um, hello. Have you read my blog? I suck at writing stuff down everyday. I knew that going in to it but for some reason I thought I would be able to do it. BUT! I don't feel like it was a total bust because even though I'm not writing anything down I do feel like I'm more aware of my happiness in general because of the idea of a happiness journal.
The one I've managed to half-ass is my eating/diet plan. I'm kind of sort of becoming interested in considering maybe thinking about doing it right. I usually do it right at lunch at work. Breakfast is meh and supper at home is a giant NO. I'm not losing but I'm not gaining either so whatever. I know what I need to do I just need to find my motivation again.
The one I feel like I'm kicking butt on is my get moving resolution. I'm doing a 100 day challenge I read about online. It's simple. Just move 30 minutes a day. Add 30 minutes of exercise that's not part of your daily routine. I've managed to do it every day so far for 18 days. Yay for me! This is the longest I've stuck to any kind of routine exercise and I'm kind of proud of myself.
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
Monday, January 02, 2012
New Year's Blah, blah, blah
I hate making New Year's resolutions. For the most part I don't do them but this year I've got some goals I want to stick to and I figured if they were in writing I might do better about sticking to them. So here they are:
1. Keep a happiness journal. I read this on a website I go to recently and I loved the idea. Keep a journal and just write done something that made me smile that day. Doesn't have to be anything big and nothing negative allowed. So if I didn't smile that day, nothing gets written down.
2. Move more. I am so pitifully out of shape it's not even funny. I'm not trying to become a super athlete or anything, I'd just like to be able to walk around with out getting winded.
3. Get back on my diet plan. Last year I did the 4 hour body plan and had great success with it. I fell off the plan due to several things, the number one being laziness. It's not hard or complicated at all and I need to get back on it.
I've got more stuff but those are my big 3. The things I feel like will have the greatest impact on my overall health and happiness so I'm going to put my main focus on those and I think the other stuff will fall in to place.
1. Keep a happiness journal. I read this on a website I go to recently and I loved the idea. Keep a journal and just write done something that made me smile that day. Doesn't have to be anything big and nothing negative allowed. So if I didn't smile that day, nothing gets written down.
2. Move more. I am so pitifully out of shape it's not even funny. I'm not trying to become a super athlete or anything, I'd just like to be able to walk around with out getting winded.
3. Get back on my diet plan. Last year I did the 4 hour body plan and had great success with it. I fell off the plan due to several things, the number one being laziness. It's not hard or complicated at all and I need to get back on it.
I've got more stuff but those are my big 3. The things I feel like will have the greatest impact on my overall health and happiness so I'm going to put my main focus on those and I think the other stuff will fall in to place.
Monday, December 26, 2011
Pity Party
So, I'm having myself a pity party that last few days. It's Christmas and I miss my husband so very, very much. Don't get me wrong, I miss him every second of every day. But I've been missing him more than ever now.
It seems like things would be getting easier and in some ways they are but in others they are worse. The initial shock is gone. The dust has settled from the bomb that went off in our lives July 11, 2010. But after the dust is settled you can see how bad the damage really is. I don't want to do this. I don't want to be responsible for every decision of every day that affects my kids lives. I don't want to be responsible for the house. I don't want to have to call someone to come level the house that has settled in the extreme drought we had this last summer. I don't want to walk outside and know that I'M the one responsible. We've got 5 acres which isn't that much really, for around here. I feel like the world is on my shoulders sometimes.
Ok, I got off track of my whining for a minute. Wes always spoiled me at Christmas. I miss that. God, that sounds shallow. But I miss having him around for little things like that. I just miss HIM.
It seems like things would be getting easier and in some ways they are but in others they are worse. The initial shock is gone. The dust has settled from the bomb that went off in our lives July 11, 2010. But after the dust is settled you can see how bad the damage really is. I don't want to do this. I don't want to be responsible for every decision of every day that affects my kids lives. I don't want to be responsible for the house. I don't want to have to call someone to come level the house that has settled in the extreme drought we had this last summer. I don't want to walk outside and know that I'M the one responsible. We've got 5 acres which isn't that much really, for around here. I feel like the world is on my shoulders sometimes.
Ok, I got off track of my whining for a minute. Wes always spoiled me at Christmas. I miss that. God, that sounds shallow. But I miss having him around for little things like that. I just miss HIM.
Monday, November 14, 2011
Just need to get this out
Sorry, vent ahead. I've got one co-worker who works everyday with me and another that works on average 1 day a week. Just whenever she comes in.
This vent is about the full-time co-worker. She's on the phone talking to someone (I think her husband) about how she can sympathise with a friend because she knows how hard it is to be a single mom. How does she know? Because her husband works shift work and is gone at night a lot. Um, no, honey you have NO idea how hard it is to be a single mom.
You might know how hard it is to do stuff at home when your husband is not around but you have no idea. At.all. Not even an inkling of an idea.
She talks to her husband multiple times a day. She knows that he's available if he needs her even if it's hard to get ahold of him at work. She knows that he's alive somewhere in this world.
So, no. Just because you might go a few days without actually seeing your husband in person does NOT mean you know what it's like.
This vent is about the full-time co-worker. She's on the phone talking to someone (I think her husband) about how she can sympathise with a friend because she knows how hard it is to be a single mom. How does she know? Because her husband works shift work and is gone at night a lot. Um, no, honey you have NO idea how hard it is to be a single mom.
You might know how hard it is to do stuff at home when your husband is not around but you have no idea. At.all. Not even an inkling of an idea.
She talks to her husband multiple times a day. She knows that he's available if he needs her even if it's hard to get ahold of him at work. She knows that he's alive somewhere in this world.
So, no. Just because you might go a few days without actually seeing your husband in person does NOT mean you know what it's like.
Saturday, October 22, 2011
New love
Here is our newest family member here in Happy Town. Meet Snow. She's tiny and adorable and we love her very much.
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Long time, no see
Wow, it's been a long time since I blogged anything. I need to get back to it, I've got some stuff rattling around in my head that I need to get out and blogging helps a lot. I have the number of a grief counselor I need to call but I haven't been able to make my self make that call just quite yet. I got a note from the counselor at my kids school with the number so I know I need to call because now it's not just me it's affecting my kids.
I have a cousin, I'll call him M, who's wife died of a suspected aneurysm when their kids were young. Younger than my kids were when their dad died. My cousin had two boys and although they have grown in to nice young men they both have serious issues that I feel go back to the loss of their mom. One is off and on drugs, probably more on than we know and the other was just lost for a lot of years. :( Another cousin remarked to me after my husband died how she wishes M would have taken his boys to counselling after their mom died. It was like a light bulb went off and I realized I don't want my kids to turn out like his kids.
BUT, that is easier said than done. I've found the human mind has a remarkable ability to shut off when painful stuff happens. I don't think any of us have fully dealt with the loss yet. I don't know if I'm ready to deal with it yet.
And in my next post, I'll introduce you to the newest love of our lives around here. (As soon as I figure out which one of our computers the picture is on.)
I have a cousin, I'll call him M, who's wife died of a suspected aneurysm when their kids were young. Younger than my kids were when their dad died. My cousin had two boys and although they have grown in to nice young men they both have serious issues that I feel go back to the loss of their mom. One is off and on drugs, probably more on than we know and the other was just lost for a lot of years. :( Another cousin remarked to me after my husband died how she wishes M would have taken his boys to counselling after their mom died. It was like a light bulb went off and I realized I don't want my kids to turn out like his kids.
BUT, that is easier said than done. I've found the human mind has a remarkable ability to shut off when painful stuff happens. I don't think any of us have fully dealt with the loss yet. I don't know if I'm ready to deal with it yet.
And in my next post, I'll introduce you to the newest love of our lives around here. (As soon as I figure out which one of our computers the picture is on.)
Thursday, July 28, 2011
Home sweet home
I'm back from vacation. My family and I....my whole family, parents, siblings and their families spent a wonderful 10 days in Florida! We spent a couple of days at Cocoa Beach then we went to Kissimmie. We rented a big fancy house and all stayed together. It was wonderful!!
My kids got to fly on a plane for the first time, see the ocean for the first time, go to Disney & Universal for the first time. It was incredible seeing them see it for the first time. I've been to the ocean but it's been years and years......probably 30 years. I've been to Disneyland but not Disney world so that was fun for us all. And the best most awesome part...........we got to go to The Wizarding World of Harry Potter!!!!!! It was incredible and awesome and amazing and more. I think I was more excited than the kids were.
The house we rented had it's own pool so we swam everyday and didn't have to worry about others in the pool like we would in a hotel. All the adults had their own bedrooms, we had a washer and dryer so there was no mountain of laundry to do when we got home.
We packed a ton of stuff in our 10 days. The beach, Kennedy Space Center, Universal, Gatorland, Disney, Dinosaur World and of course tons of eating and shopping. I even tried sushi for the first time. I loved it! I even drove the whole time which for me is a huge step. I hate driving in a lot of traffic but by the end of the first few days I was driving like a local. I'm very proud of me. lol
We're home now and it's back to the hot, dry crappy weather here. It was hot down there but nothing like it is here. It was instantly dripping with sweat hot but not baking in an oven going to die if you stay outside hot like it is here. Blah! We need rain so bad here.
I'm glad to be back but I'd love to be in that house and that pool again!
My kids got to fly on a plane for the first time, see the ocean for the first time, go to Disney & Universal for the first time. It was incredible seeing them see it for the first time. I've been to the ocean but it's been years and years......probably 30 years. I've been to Disneyland but not Disney world so that was fun for us all. And the best most awesome part...........we got to go to The Wizarding World of Harry Potter!!!!!! It was incredible and awesome and amazing and more. I think I was more excited than the kids were.
The house we rented had it's own pool so we swam everyday and didn't have to worry about others in the pool like we would in a hotel. All the adults had their own bedrooms, we had a washer and dryer so there was no mountain of laundry to do when we got home.
We packed a ton of stuff in our 10 days. The beach, Kennedy Space Center, Universal, Gatorland, Disney, Dinosaur World and of course tons of eating and shopping. I even tried sushi for the first time. I loved it! I even drove the whole time which for me is a huge step. I hate driving in a lot of traffic but by the end of the first few days I was driving like a local. I'm very proud of me. lol
We're home now and it's back to the hot, dry crappy weather here. It was hot down there but nothing like it is here. It was instantly dripping with sweat hot but not baking in an oven going to die if you stay outside hot like it is here. Blah! We need rain so bad here.
I'm glad to be back but I'd love to be in that house and that pool again!
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