I have decided that I have GOT to lose some weight. I'm miserable. I can't walk with out pain and getting winded. I'm so out of shape it's embarrassing, really. I know I'm fat, I don't think I'm a blubbery mess or anything yet. I'm jiggly for sure, but I'm so weak physically I'm starting to get worried for my health and my future.
I've started trying to cut out the fast food which is a huge problem for me. I work out of the home and I hate packing a lunch so I just grab a burger or whatever. Besides being expensive it's killing my health......so I've decided to start bringing my lunch. Now, what I bring might not be the best but it has to be better than McD's, right? And breakfast at home too.
I'm not Catholic, so we're not big in to giving up stuff for Lent but I've done it before. So...I figure I'm giving up eating out for lunch for Lent. Giving up my bad habit, does that count?
I also ordered a work out DVD that I got yesterday. I did it yesterday afternoon when I was home with a sick girl. It was HARD. The exercises were not that hard but I was panting and sweating. Wow. It was bad. Now of course today I'm sore. Not too sore but the longer the day goes on the more sore I get. I have to do this, I have to stick to it.
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
Saturday, February 07, 2009
Rock on!
I'm sitting here in the computer room listening to/watching VH1 Classics. When did the music I listened to in high school become classic rock???!?
Ozzy, Bon Jovi, Ratt, David Lee Roth, Quiet Riot, Whitesnake. The big hair, the scarves, the spandex body suits, the even bigger hair. How embarassing it must for some of them to look back now and see what they wore and how they looked!
But wow, what memories. When Ozzy came on singing Bark at the Moon I was instantly back in dh's white truck cruising around town and out in the country, sitting in the middle next to dh, my butt vibrating with the thump thump of his huge speaker he had behind the seat. It would get so loud stuff would vibrate off the seat, it's a wonder either one of us can still hear anything. We would cruise the countryside listening to tapes and rocking out. What bad asses we were LOL
Rock on dude!! *making the rock on sign with my hands*
Ozzy, Bon Jovi, Ratt, David Lee Roth, Quiet Riot, Whitesnake. The big hair, the scarves, the spandex body suits, the even bigger hair. How embarassing it must for some of them to look back now and see what they wore and how they looked!
But wow, what memories. When Ozzy came on singing Bark at the Moon I was instantly back in dh's white truck cruising around town and out in the country, sitting in the middle next to dh, my butt vibrating with the thump thump of his huge speaker he had behind the seat. It would get so loud stuff would vibrate off the seat, it's a wonder either one of us can still hear anything. We would cruise the countryside listening to tapes and rocking out. What bad asses we were LOL
Rock on dude!! *making the rock on sign with my hands*
Thursday, February 05, 2009
Woohoo! I've still got it
Sometimes I get to feeling a little down on myself. I'm 37, fat and out of shape. Plus the whole ugly thing going on...so I worry. I worry that dh is tired of me. He's been seeing me naked since 1987... maybe he's done getting excited about that. I've had 2 kids, I have stretch marks and pooches where before there were none.
Today I am wearing a shirt to work that I have worn before. BUT today I'm wearing the shirt with my new-ish bra that really makes the girls stand up and be noticed. I came out of the bathroom asking dh if the shirt was too revealing for work. His vote was no. He liked the shirt. A lot. Woohoo!!
But now I'm sitting at my desk thinking what is good for a dh to notice might not be too good for the rest of the world. Oh well, it is my boss's birthday today...maybe I'll get a raise. LOL
Not that kind of raise....get your mind out of the gutter!!
Today I am wearing a shirt to work that I have worn before. BUT today I'm wearing the shirt with my new-ish bra that really makes the girls stand up and be noticed. I came out of the bathroom asking dh if the shirt was too revealing for work. His vote was no. He liked the shirt. A lot. Woohoo!!
But now I'm sitting at my desk thinking what is good for a dh to notice might not be too good for the rest of the world. Oh well, it is my boss's birthday today...maybe I'll get a raise. LOL
Not that kind of raise....get your mind out of the gutter!!
Friday, January 30, 2009
The end is near!
Repent!! The end is near!
I feel like I will be seeing guys standing on the street corner yelling at us to repent. There have been two, yes TWO earthquakes in Oklahoma this week!! WOW, that's freaky.
I can remember several years ago there was one and we actually felt it at work. It was wierd! It was only a 1 point something I think. THe most recent two have been small also, it's just weird to hear of earthquakes in Oklahoma.
Or maybe the fact that I'm drinking tonight makes it even wierder? *paranoid*
I feel like I will be seeing guys standing on the street corner yelling at us to repent. There have been two, yes TWO earthquakes in Oklahoma this week!! WOW, that's freaky.
I can remember several years ago there was one and we actually felt it at work. It was wierd! It was only a 1 point something I think. THe most recent two have been small also, it's just weird to hear of earthquakes in Oklahoma.
Or maybe the fact that I'm drinking tonight makes it even wierder? *paranoid*
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Busted
Ha! The losers who broke in to our house have been arrested. It was a man and a woman. They are both being held for $100,000 bond. Obviously they had robbed more than just us. The deputy said they are suspected in robbing houses in many counties around here and even up in to Kansas.
The deputy came by our house Tuesday to show us some pictures of blankets that were found at the house. None of them were ours though. We were all home from work and school because of the ice storm that we had. When the deputy came over this time thank god the house was clean!!! Well, clean for us. I've heard from someone that knows him that he's a complete neat freak so he probably still thought it was bad, but for me it was almost spotless LOL.
Anyway, when he was here talking to dh, brother was fascinated because as he told me in a whisper "mama, I can see his gun". Then when I told him I thought that he had TWO guns, he about fell out of his chair LOL That boy does love guns. Everything he picks up he can turn in to a gun, which is kind of worrying in a way. I will fully expect dh to teach him the safe way to handle a gun when brother's a little older.
Where was I? Oh yeah, the jerkfaces that robbed us are in jail and I doubt if they will be getting out any time soon. $100,000 is a LOT of money, I'm thinking they are in for some serious jail time. Which doesn't hurt my feelings at all.
The deputy came by our house Tuesday to show us some pictures of blankets that were found at the house. None of them were ours though. We were all home from work and school because of the ice storm that we had. When the deputy came over this time thank god the house was clean!!! Well, clean for us. I've heard from someone that knows him that he's a complete neat freak so he probably still thought it was bad, but for me it was almost spotless LOL.
Anyway, when he was here talking to dh, brother was fascinated because as he told me in a whisper "mama, I can see his gun". Then when I told him I thought that he had TWO guns, he about fell out of his chair LOL That boy does love guns. Everything he picks up he can turn in to a gun, which is kind of worrying in a way. I will fully expect dh to teach him the safe way to handle a gun when brother's a little older.
Where was I? Oh yeah, the jerkfaces that robbed us are in jail and I doubt if they will be getting out any time soon. $100,000 is a LOT of money, I'm thinking they are in for some serious jail time. Which doesn't hurt my feelings at all.
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Mental Block
Monday January 5th I got a call from dh. I was at work by myself and my cell phone rang, it was dh. He says "hey" and I can instantly tell something is wrong. I can always tell when he's upset on the phone and for a split second my mind races back to the day almost 19 years ago when he called me and says "guess what....my dad died today". I was expecting the worst.
It was bad but certainly not the worst. Someone broke in to our house and stole both our brand new flat screen televisions. They broke the window on our back door and got the door unlocked. They came in to our house and took our tv sets. The also dumped out a lock box we have apparently looking for money.....we have no money you idiots!!! We have new tv sets where do you think the money went?
Dh called the sheriff department I left work in a panic. My mind was racing...what else did they take, what did they tear up? I got home and the sheriff was there with dh. Contrary to what it looked like, they did not tear up the house. We managed that on our own. It had been a bad week and the house was a wreck. At the time I didn't care but looking back I'm horribly embarrassed. I just want to invent a reason for the deputy to come back to see my house clean.
As I looked through the house I kept thinking of stuff they might have taken. Two brand new boxes of checks in the computer room...still there. My digital camera laying on the kitchen counter that they walked right by.....still there. My kids rooms...untouched as far as I can tell. The Wii that was right beside the now missing tv......still there.
As we got ready for bed that night dh realizes........no blanket. Those creeps took the blanket off our bed!!
Even through all this I have remained really calm about it all. I have come to realize I have not let myself think of the actual people that were in my house. I don't know if it was one or two or how many but I haven't/can't let myself go down that road. I know my televisions are gone. And that's as far as I can go. I can't imagine that there were actual strangers in my house touching my stuff....touching my bed. Sometimes that door will crack open and all I can do is slam it shut again. Maybe when they catch the guy(s) (and they are well on their way to doing just that) I'll be able to process it, but until then I keep it blocked out.
It was bad but certainly not the worst. Someone broke in to our house and stole both our brand new flat screen televisions. They broke the window on our back door and got the door unlocked. They came in to our house and took our tv sets. The also dumped out a lock box we have apparently looking for money.....we have no money you idiots!!! We have new tv sets where do you think the money went?
Dh called the sheriff department I left work in a panic. My mind was racing...what else did they take, what did they tear up? I got home and the sheriff was there with dh. Contrary to what it looked like, they did not tear up the house. We managed that on our own. It had been a bad week and the house was a wreck. At the time I didn't care but looking back I'm horribly embarrassed. I just want to invent a reason for the deputy to come back to see my house clean.
As I looked through the house I kept thinking of stuff they might have taken. Two brand new boxes of checks in the computer room...still there. My digital camera laying on the kitchen counter that they walked right by.....still there. My kids rooms...untouched as far as I can tell. The Wii that was right beside the now missing tv......still there.
As we got ready for bed that night dh realizes........no blanket. Those creeps took the blanket off our bed!!
Even through all this I have remained really calm about it all. I have come to realize I have not let myself think of the actual people that were in my house. I don't know if it was one or two or how many but I haven't/can't let myself go down that road. I know my televisions are gone. And that's as far as I can go. I can't imagine that there were actual strangers in my house touching my stuff....touching my bed. Sometimes that door will crack open and all I can do is slam it shut again. Maybe when they catch the guy(s) (and they are well on their way to doing just that) I'll be able to process it, but until then I keep it blocked out.
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Wednesday rant
First off...cancer sucks. I found out yesterday that a wonderful man I know lost his 6(plus) month battle with cancer. Cancer, you suck. How dare you take such a wonderful man with his bright blue eyes and wonderful laugh. I always knew when I saw him I'd hear that laugh. I didn't know him very well, just through work, but he was one of the good ones. I pray for his wife and family, he was so young only in his early 50's. Fuck you cancer.
Second, people who forget to pay their car payments are stupid. People who forget to pay their car payments and spend the money before they realize WHY they had extra money are a special kind of idiot. Ahem.......not that I would personally know anything about that...nope, not me.
Third, I freaking HATE the cold. HATE.IT. I don't know how people live where it's cold all the time. And really in the grand scheme of things, it wasn't that cold here. In the teens with wind chills in the -5 range. But still....I hate to be cold, I get a little (or a lot) whiney and bitchy when I get cold.
I think that's it for now. I'm sure I'll have more things to bitch about later but those are the main one right now.
Oh......Merry Christmas!! LOL
Second, people who forget to pay their car payments are stupid. People who forget to pay their car payments and spend the money before they realize WHY they had extra money are a special kind of idiot. Ahem.......not that I would personally know anything about that...nope, not me.
Third, I freaking HATE the cold. HATE.IT. I don't know how people live where it's cold all the time. And really in the grand scheme of things, it wasn't that cold here. In the teens with wind chills in the -5 range. But still....I hate to be cold, I get a little (or a lot) whiney and bitchy when I get cold.
I think that's it for now. I'm sure I'll have more things to bitch about later but those are the main one right now.
Oh......Merry Christmas!! LOL
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