Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Mental Block

Monday January 5th I got a call from dh. I was at work by myself and my cell phone rang, it was dh. He says "hey" and I can instantly tell something is wrong. I can always tell when he's upset on the phone and for a split second my mind races back to the day almost 19 years ago when he called me and says "guess what....my dad died today". I was expecting the worst.

It was bad but certainly not the worst. Someone broke in to our house and stole both our brand new flat screen televisions. They broke the window on our back door and got the door unlocked. They came in to our house and took our tv sets. The also dumped out a lock box we have apparently looking for money.....we have no money you idiots!!! We have new tv sets where do you think the money went?

Dh called the sheriff department I left work in a panic. My mind was racing...what else did they take, what did they tear up? I got home and the sheriff was there with dh. Contrary to what it looked like, they did not tear up the house. We managed that on our own. It had been a bad week and the house was a wreck. At the time I didn't care but looking back I'm horribly embarrassed. I just want to invent a reason for the deputy to come back to see my house clean.

As I looked through the house I kept thinking of stuff they might have taken. Two brand new boxes of checks in the computer room...still there. My digital camera laying on the kitchen counter that they walked right by.....still there. My kids rooms...untouched as far as I can tell. The Wii that was right beside the now missing tv......still there.

As we got ready for bed that night dh realizes........no blanket. Those creeps took the blanket off our bed!!

Even through all this I have remained really calm about it all. I have come to realize I have not let myself think of the actual people that were in my house. I don't know if it was one or two or how many but I haven't/can't let myself go down that road. I know my televisions are gone. And that's as far as I can go. I can't imagine that there were actual strangers in my house touching my stuff....touching my bed. Sometimes that door will crack open and all I can do is slam it shut again. Maybe when they catch the guy(s) (and they are well on their way to doing just that) I'll be able to process it, but until then I keep it blocked out.

2 comments:

Terri said...

They took the blanket to wrap the TV's in would be my guess. I've moved one too many times LOL. I am so sorry this happened to you.

Kim said...

Thanks Terri. I think they made an arrest in the case but I've not heard directly from the sheriff so I'm not sure.